Dreaming...

<---> at 10:23 PM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

today wuz rather tiring... waking up at 6:30... class at 9:00... just sorta running around back n forth to classes... chem wuz a lot of review today... it became so boring... the girl next to me n i we both fell asleep... so bad... then lunch wuz pretty uneventful... sat w/ travis.. observed how he jacked brownies from the dining commons... and then duncan came later... then we all headed back to the dorms.. crazy racing... then chem lab... pretty boring... safety video n quiz... i couldn't find the fire extinguisher cuz this girl wuz standing rite in front of it... grr... but yea... sux to b short... but newayz.. yea... went back to my room... calc hw... growl.. didn't understand it.. so i printed out a bunch n took it to the drop in tutoring place... understood part of it... then went back.. did some... then stopped understanding the rest... n went back to the tutoring place... then went back to the dorm... so many back n forths... but i finished... n then i wuz so hyper!!! but eventually i calmed down n did some asian am reading... then went to dinner... heh... saw jacob... asked where everyone else wuz... didn't see them... then met up w/ andrew.. had dinner w/ him.. then.. yea... ran around in circles... saw josh... then finally a whole mess of the aacf ppl walked all the way to broida for the meeting... it wuz pretty good... but... i'll have to see some more.. and... yea... i think i'm gonna go to a concert this weekend... so i gotta do hw...

<---> at 11:00 PM

so lesse... today... didn't do much... walked to my classes cuz i'm getting sick of biking... its so tedious when u get stuck in bike traffic... but yea... everything wuz ok... music discussion... then chem tutoring.. then went to lunch w/ sophia... n then met up w/ andrew... he taught me how to play pool today... omg... u don't know how amazingly horrible i am at pool.. hahaha...then went to calc... omg... so boring i wuz hecka falling asleep... then... ummm... math tutoring... couldn't get stupider... wuz no help at all... then what did i do? studied... got distracted... made tea... went to dinner... studied... called ppl... got help on calc.. IFFY UR THE GREATEST EVER!!! I LOVE U!!! HAHAHA... o yea... n i kept messing w/ britney telling her i wuz on the phone w/ my boyfriend... n duncan believed that i actually had one.. hahaha... good grief... but yea... then got sucked into watching a movie w/ other ppl... super troopers... really crazy movie... but yea... 9am class tomorrow... it ain't that late but i'm always tired nowdays... AACF TOMORROW!!! and i'm gonna invite more ppl... i'm so excited...

<---> at 12:18 AM

Monday, September 26, 2005

hi hi... so newayz... i woke up once at 5:30ish today... y? cuz there wuz thunder... n also cuz i wuz freezing cold... but yea... then... woke up again at 6:30... so tired... i actually got to all my classes on time today... i'm so happy... no longer stressed... cuz music seems easy.. so i don't exactly want to drop it... but yea... then came back... went to lunch w/ 6th floor guyz... listening to them talk about boyscouts n disney ect... rather strange... then went up tried to study.. then realized i needed to go to the post office... so i go there... pick up my package... realize.. ooo it has chinese... it must b from over seas... ooo... it must b my calc book... but then i'm looking at the package... n wuz like... man... this is a weird shape... and its not that thick either... n then i tried to bend it... so then i wuz like... o crap... its flexible... its a paperback book... n i wuz like thinking.. it sooo better not be a solutions manual... so i go up to my room n open it... sure enough... its paperback... but then... it said it wuz the 5th edition text book... so i wuz like... errr... ok.... there's chinese words on the front... n i look inside it seems to have everything else... so i'm like... ok... i'll call someone to see if i have the right book... so i call andrew... n asked if he had the book... haha.. turns out he wuz gonna go buy it... so when he got it... i had him come up so i could compare the books... amazingly enough.. it wuz the same stuff.. 'cept... mine has no color n is paperback n has chinese words on the front... but yea... its good enough... so... i wuz talking w/ andrew for super long... cuz i didn't wanna study n he didn't want to go to clas... but eventually we ended our convo... heh... but britney decided... o man... caroline's on her way to getting a boyfriend... u like him don't u caroline... errr... he's just a friend... n i barely know him... but yea... newayz... asian am discussion wuz.. sorta pointless today... went back... did lotsa math... 'cept... it sorta sucked how much i forgot... *sigh*... hahaha... i left my calc notebook at home... ima just gonna have to re-learn everything again here... man... heh... so newayz... i've just mostly been studying n getting distracted... n studying some more... i should b a better student... but i'm not... but yea... this is my day... not much interesting...'cept arguing w/ britney over whether or not there's something going on btwn me n andrew or not... which... there isn't... so i just laugh at everything she says... ok... music discussion tomorrow... i hope its all cool... i'm so scared something is just gonna seem easy n turn so super hard on me later... so yes... must study up...

<---> at 11:50 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005

okee... today... woke up super duper early... cuz i didn't know what time church wuz... but i think it wuz at 11... did devo... n stuff... then did my asian am reading... by 10:50... wuz getting a lil worried... but yea... at 11... i wuz debating whether or not i should call someone and ask about church... i wuz gonna call someone to see if they got picked up or not... but realized... i didn't have ne1's #... n then i sat there thinking... then i remember ken gave me his number yesterday... so i called him n asked if it wuz possible to go to church today... since... i wuz lost n confused cuz no one called me... but yea... so i got a phone call at almost 1 and ken asks me if i'm ready to go to church... n i'm like... i guess... i wonder if ppl dress up for church here... or wuz that only back at home... n some other churches... owell... but yea... so i go to church... turns out.. its the one naree goes to... which wuz pretty cool... but yea... the message wuz interesting... something about sin... and judgement... n stuff... kinda got lost... so... had lunch after church... hahaha... 3:00 lunch... nice.. hung out.. talked w/ naree.. then ken took me back to school... did some more asian am reading... almost got sucked in to go to downtown... state street... but i thot about it... not enough time to go there n back n make it back by 6 for church again... cuz... ken invited me to check out another church... it wuz pretty cool... but yea... so went to dinner w/ kristine and david... but haha... never finished n i had to leave.. it wuz cool cuz i wuzn't that hungry... but yea... so i had to leave them... but yea... went to sbcc... the ppl seem nice.. the message wuz really good... why? cuz it hit me strait to the heart... it wuz like... God wuz talking to me... the message wuz for me... we read Jeremiah 1... and then it wuz like... how God set us aside for a purpose to go do his work.... we need to go n respond to his calling... if u don't respond to God... u fail life... and the idea of inertia and how still objects tend to stay still objects and objects in motion tend to stay in motion... so the pastor talked about the idea of spiritual inertia... how u can stay in one place n not do nething... but u won't grow in Christ... but if u go do something for God u'll keep going for Him... if we train ourselves not to hear His calling... we will become numb n calloused to Him... but if we train ourselves to be sensitive to him... u train urself that u can't n don't quit... and u'll keep going n growing for Him... good stuff... deep stuff.. gotta remember these things... but yea... so now i'm back... but sunday nites r my early nites... gotta go to sleep early n wake up at 8 tomorrow...

<---> at 8:26 PM

i just realized... i know 2 andrews here at ucsb... hmmm... well... mebe i'll just call the 6th floor andrew smithey... just cuz thats his last name n some ppl call him that... but yea... w/e it wuz a random thot... ok.. onto my day...

ok... so this morning... there wuz a message on the white board in the lounge totally bashing all the girls on my floor n the 3rd floor... idiots... they just group us all together.. yelling at us about drinking sex n bringing back boyfriends... good grief... and dissing us by calling us antisocial... all our doors r open all the time... i dare someone to say antisocial to my face... *rolls eyes*... ok... neways... brunch... the eggs r ewwwnes... *shudders*... it has such a weird texture... but yea... besides the point... i went to the aacf picnic today... invited naree... so she came... it wuz pretty cool... the worship wuz nice... i actually knew the songs... but *sigh*... i didn't bring my precious to school... so i can't try out the strums the worship leader used on those songs... but yea... hand lunch... great burgers... yum yum... haha... actually only split half w/ naree... then somehow... i discovered andrew so could NOT throw a football... i wuz like... O_O tell me ur joking... but he wuzn't n so we were throwing a football around i wuz trying to teach him how to throw the football... i think he sort of got the hang of it after a while... then we ended up playing frisbee... so we invited naree to joing us... haha... that wuz pretty fun... ooo.... then later... we had and ultimate frisbee game.... that wuz sooo fun... i haven't done that much running since... i have no idea... but runnings great.. the only sad thing is... i'm way too short... when i jump for the frisbee... someone alwayz jumps n snatches it from rite on top of me... *sigh*... o well... but it wuz sooooo fun... n got talking to upperclassmen too... i don't feel as bad about last nite nemore... but yea... i had lotsa fun... then... came back... sorta did hw... helped this girl do math... which wuz very easy... but yea... then did some studying... n pitched in w/ a bunch of gils to get pizza delivered to our dorm... it wuz nice.... just hanging w/ girls on my floor... then... sugarcult concert... nice.... kinda got trampled tho... while ppl were moshing... heh... smashed near the speakers... almost lost my friends... but yea.. cool stuff.... i got church tomorrow... n i'm really tired... no details today... sorry... gnite...

<---> at 12:05 AM

Friday, September 23, 2005

lesse... today... rather stressful... biking from class to class to class... frickin bike traffic... but yea... pretty interesting... but the fact that i'm always late cuz of the bike traffic is rather overwhelming... iono... felt rather stressed... had lunch... hahaha... coming out of lunch... saw some of the guyz from the 6th floor all going to lunch... haha... the craziest thing happened... one guy got rejected from the dining commons... nice... how the heck do u do something like that? well turns out he ate breakfast way too late and then tried to go to lunch about 2 hrs later... crazy... ok then... went up to my room... did some random stuff.. then studied... did my music reading... took a power nap... then got called out to help ppl w/ their math hw... man... frickin algebra... all of it... but ok... i be nice... i just don't like being interupted while i'm studying... so hard to study when its loud... but i didn't feel like going to the library today... cuz its too lonely... but i should if i really need to focus... yea... so then... did more reading.... got bothered but 6th floor guyz to go to dinner w/ them again... hahaha... declined... steve thinks i'm a liar cuz he didn't believe i wuz actually studying... but yea... did a lil more reading... wend to dinner w/ kristine.... then she n i went up to the 6th floor to see if a guy would come w/ us to the soccer game.. haha.. ended up going w/ andrew n duncan... pretty crazy... cuz we all kinda didn't know where we were going... the game wuz ok... the other team sucked like crazy... so.. yea... but... it wuz interesting... hahaha.. during the game duncan wuz drinking this caffine thing... iono wut it wuz... but it smelled weird.. hahaha... n he wuz trying to tempt me to drink some... didn't work... hahaha... but yea... had lotsa fun... so we all went back... n being the idiot nerd that i am... i go study again... trying to finish at least one reading... got invited to a party... declined... then later one of my drunk floor mates n some other ppl come n invite us to go to IV(isla vista)... ummm... lets just say... that frickin IS pary central... am i gonna go there w/ dancing n drinking? can u see me doing that? didn't think so... yea ok i told some ppl i'd be a party girl... but seriously... ummm line party girl... naw... so... i stuck firm to the i'm gonna go study thing.. n so i sat there... n thats what i did... i read my music book... but... yea... i also got my first encounter w/ completely wasted floor mate... good grief... if ur gonna drink... drink responsibly... and frickin eat something first... cuz that'll probably help u hold ur liquor better... but dude.. that girl... totally wasted... barfing in the hall... barfing in the bathroom... great grief... it sorta pissed me off... i totally closed my door... idiots... then britney came up n said that she kristine n jessica didn't go to IV but instead rented a movie... went down... started watching.. turned out to be american pie... ummm... lets just say... i didn't really like it... and... i'm a frickin iono... i turned away from the screan a lot... yea... but newayz... it wuz cool... just hanging around after the movie... talking to a whole bunch of ppl... but yea... britney kept hiding from our RA it wuz so funny cuz when he came into the rec lounge.. she ran behind the curtain... and kept "curtain hopping" not really... but yea.. ran behind all the curtains and ran away... it wuz hecka funny... and... yea... that wuz pretty much most of my day...

<---> at 10:59 PM

ok... today... didn't do much... signed up for free tutoring classes in math n chem... then went to math... it wuz so so... the teacher seems like a nice person... seems cool... then... basically hung out didn't do much... met some guyz from the 7th floor they were pretty crazy... they shared my passionate hate for calculus... woohoo... more calc haters... hahahaha... the greatest ever... they actually got the same score as me on ap test... n they agree that math is evil... hahaha... then a couple of us girls from the 5th floor went up to the 7th floor to just hang out.. watched the dave chapell show(i think thats wut it wuz)... n then... later... just hung out again... ended up going to dinner w/ guyz from the 6th floor... again... haha... it wuz funny cuz we ended up eating outside and since the tables outside r smaller... we had to split up... n we purposely ostracized some of them.. haha... pretty crazy... but yea... dinner wuz cool... but crappy asian food... yuck... one of these days i'm gonna crack out my rice cooker n make something... hahahaha... lesse.. then went to the campus crusade real life fellowship... pretty nice... the size is kinda intimidating... but the message wuz good... then went to hang w/ AACF ppl n bowling... I SAW NANCY TRAN!!!! i wuz so relieved to see a familiar face... man... hahaha... then... went to talk to andrew... haha... cuz... yes... i dragged him there in the first place cuz being the chicken i am.. too scared to go alone... hahaha... but it wuz pretty cool... met many more ppl... but i'm probably gonna forget who they are later... >_< bad caroline.... owell... haha... ken kept forgetting andrew's name... it wuz funny... and andrew who said he couldn't bowl got 2 strikes... i on the other hand... bowled many gutter balls n only 1 strike... which wuz pure luck... but francis didn't believe me... o well.. hahaha... i had a lot of fun... AACF ppl seem really nice... u just have to be brave enough to talk to them... but yea... i'll have to check out their real meetings too... ok... well newayz... its late... n i have a 9:00 class tomorrow off campus... so... gnite!

<---> at 12:16 AM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

ok... so lesse... i'm actually in my dorm b4 12!!! thats amazing... hahaha... cuz the other couple of days i usually came back around 12 something and started blogging... thats y my days r off on my blog... but yea.. newayz... lesse... today... visited the rec center w/ sophia... pretty nice... i have to go swimming there... so many lanes... mmmm... swimming... the greates ever... then... got back... went to lunch by myself cuz sophia ate breakfast late... n i wuzn't sure if i wanted to bother kristine n jessica or not... but then... yea... iono.. it worked out cuz i met this girl named allesy she wuz pretty cool... kinda random... walked around campus w/ her n went all the way to see the IV bookstore w/ her... then walked to the beach... she's a very interesting person... iono... hahaha... thats all i can say to discribe her... lesse... then... went back to my room... called bed(no i didn't go to sleep... i called deborah)... refilled my water filter thingy... n then... lesse... ummmm... yea... went to visit kristine n jessica... watched x-men 2.... very interesting... but yea... i haven't even seen the first one... hmmm... what else... then after that went to dinner... ran around finally put money on my laundry card... o good grief... these guyz in santa rosa... *rolls eyes*.. so they saw jessica kristine april n i go into the laundry room n they were like... it takes 4 of u to do the laundry? r u doing laundry together? n a whole bunch of stupid comments like that... so what i said wuz just... o no... we're just trying to put money on our laundry card... n one of them was just like... yea.. thats what u call it.. great grief... retards... but yea.. then after running around all the different dorms trying to find which one would take cash we gave up... by then it wuz 7:30 n i wanted to check out AACF so i went to the elevator in san nick... but i didn't know where i wuz going... so then the ppl in the elevator were looking at me funny... so i asked them where AACF wuz meeting... n turns out they were going there too... but then... *sigh*... i wuz so super early for a freshie... so i wuz kinda scared... didn't know what to say... but then ken wuz like... "hey i met u!!!" n i wuz like... "yea ur ken" cuz he told me last time that i wouldn't remember his name... but i did... cuz i'm cool like that... jk... but newayz.. he actually forgot mine... hahaha... how ironic is that... but yea... he talked to me... introduced me to people... it wuz pretty cool... but then he had to go greet other ppl too so he went off... but yea... then i wuz all... O_O and >.> <.< >.> cuz i didn't know who to go up to and talk... cuz a lot of ppl were in their own convos... haha... but it wuz cool cuz ken kept comming back n trying to rescue me and introduce me to other ppl... hahaha.. then after a while it just got crazier n crazier... he introduced me to someone as his cousin from louisiana who had to come here cuz her house n school wuz destroyed by hurricane katrina... hahaha... craziness... but yea... then i got talking with this girl... sadly... iono... i just couldn't click past the small talk... but then.. guess what!!! i saw andrew!! he's this guy i met at orientation... he's viet... pretty cool... so i got talking to him... n met his friend jason... n then we all met this other guy named francis... and then i met andrew and jason's friend kathy... i think.. O_o ... uh-oh... i forgot... >_< kathy or katie... o well.. so then... we were all trying to get ppl to mess w/ the lights.. and when no one cared... we tried to get ppl to dance w/ the lights going on n off... it wuz sooo funny... "are u a brave soul?" hahaha... but yea... it wuz pretty crazy... then... when we left... traded numbers w/ andrew... hahaha.. he doesn't even know his own number!! n then... when we were in the elevator... other ppl came in... n then when i started my number... it got really really quiet... it wuz kinda scary... so he had me type it in... O_o other ppl listening to me give away my number... freaky... hahaha... then walking back we saw racoons!!! so cute!! jason kept pointing his flashlight at them and andrew took some pix... but yea... went into my dorm... so now here i am... i kinda don't wanna start class tomorrow even tho my class isn't till 2 in the afternoon... but yea... i'm excited but not.. hahaha... one of those things..

<---> at 9:14 PM

today wuz pretty interesting... the morning wuz sorta blah... but i finally got the guts to ask someone where embarcadero hall wuz... ugh... so confuzzling... hahaha... but yea... now i know exactly where all my classes r n how to get there... then... just sorta chilled... didn't know who to go hang out w/ n didn't wanna come off as annoying n bother ppl n call them up for lunch... luckily for me... i ran into jessica and kristine had lunch.. then went to my major meeting... eww... boring... but i hecka gotta get tutoring... freeness.. hahaha... after that... too lazy to go to the eop meeting... so i didn't go... hung out w/ kristine instead and waited for jessica to come out of the eop meeting... ugh... got blown off.. waited an hour for nothing... so kristine and i decided to go to the beach... man... its so relaxing there... its so nice... stayed at the beach for about an hour or so until it got cold... it wuz nice just hanging out w/ kristine... got to know her a lot better... got back... just chilled in my room again... then went to dinner w/ kristine cuz jessica wuz still a no show... then after dinner... chilled again... then we went to this sorta praise worship thing at storke plaza hosted by Real Life (the campus crusade ministry at sb) the worship wuz awsome... and the ppl r so nice... i just wish i saw more asians...hahaha... i still needa go check out AACF but i'm also kinda scared to go alone... iono... heh... they seemed nice too... n i'm craving asian contact... but yea... i also want a good fellowship group to go to that i can feel comfortable w/... then after that came back... chilled some more... ended up watching this movie called Friday w/ a few girls from our floor... pretty crazy movie... hahaha... but yea... i'm not looking forward to start of classes...

<---> at 12:51 AM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

heh... so today... parents left.... *sigh*.... but then i wuz able to check out the campus fellowships... so =) good stuff... then got my evil chem books... so friggin expensive... n then met more ppl being totally random... things were pretty uneventful till dinner... met more guyz... hahaha... line's on a guy meeting frenzy... jk... but yea... i think their names were sean and david... david wuz pretty cool very easy to talk to... o yes... and b4 i forget... i did meet an upperclassmen from the AACF... his name wuz ken... he does not expect me to remember his name... haha... he told me to join the mens bible study group cuz he's leading it... made no sense but owell... hahaha... ok... so afterdinner... hung around w/ some a whole mess of random ppl... then they decided to play pool... line, having no idea what's going on when ppl play pool quietyly dissapears... goes upstairs... sorta cleaned my room... not really... then did my water filter stuff.. n then... line being the smart girl that she is... guess what she does? she locks herself out of her room... n goes down to get a key... so it was when i went to return the key i used to open my door i met david again... so we started talking... and stuff... then later... went to a hypnosis show... so friggin weird... totally all in ur head...
power of suggestion... yes... but u know... ur mind is strong too... o well... w/e... but it wuz crazy funny... in cute and *cough* disturbing ways... hahaha... came back.... was going to watch a movie w/ the group of ppl i went to the hypnosis thing w/ but then got sidetracked... watched ppl dance... i after a while started to feel awkward... so i call kristine... quietly slip away make it upstairs into jessica n kristine's room.. pretty cool... finished watching guess who... its so sweet... haha... n so here i am... and i gotta go to sleep... hahaha... then again i don't think i need to get up tomorrow... owell w/e....

<---> at 1:17 AM

Monday, September 19, 2005

so i'm finally here... down in socal... down in sb... its kinda strange.... hahaha.... so when my parents left me last nite.... i totally felt like i had just been abandoned in santa barbara... so i kinda stayed in my room cleaning up... well... then later... i get a knock on my door to see if i'd go to the ice cream social in storke plaza... i was hesitant but then decided... if i'm being invited i might as well go... heh... so it turns out my floor shares an RA with the floor above us... hahaha... i'm on a girls floor and the one above us is a guyz floor... so its pretty cool... so what happened was that when i got up to the meeting place there wuz a whole mess of ppl already there already talking... *sigh* felt so awkward... hahaha... then when we left we tried to cram all of us on the same elevator... that wuz funny... we were all like packed sardines... hahaha... n when the door closed the elevator wouldn't move... hahaha.... i guess it wuz too heavy... so we opened the door n let ppl off then we were able to get down... so because of this i got talking to some ppl who were there... jessica n kristine are pretty nice... hung out w/ them and their friends from salinas that also decided to come to sb... met some guyz too... actually... hahaha... only 2... steve and andrew... interesting ppl... the dance wuz kinda awkward cuz i can't dance... but then... watching other ppl do crazy dances... that wuz fun... hahaha... then a group of us decided to be nosy and inspect the other floors... so we went up to the 7th and 8th floors and asked for random ppl's names.... it wuz kinda funny... cuz steve went up to someone and asked for a michael... he didn't even know if there wuz a michael or not... hahaha... n it turned out there actually wuz a michael and he wuz actually in his room so it wuz pretty cool... meeting new ppl... hahaha... then wandered around.. made it into the rec room... watched some weird tv... haha... n then went back up at around 12ish... watched "guess who" with jessica and kristine in their room... got tired b4 the movie even ended so we all said good nite... so i ended up going to sleep at around 1:30ish... what wuz crazy tho wuz like... an hour later... there's like this banging on the door... wake up wake up... me... being the stupid naive lil kid that i am... opens the door thinking its an emergency... turns out... its the guyz from upstairs... what do they have to say? "welcome to ucsb"... so crazy... cuz they hadn't even gone to sleep yet... hahaha... quote from them... "sleep is over rated" haha... insane... so that wuz my first real experience in sb... until next time... hahaha... i'll try to blog more regularly... =D

<---> at 9:11 AM

Thursday, September 15, 2005

so this is it... my last day here... *sigh* i'm really gonna miss ppl... after such a long summer vacation... i can't believe i'm leaving tomorrow!!! o man... i'm excited and scared at the same time... *sigh*... i really don't like saying good bye... it sounds like i'll never see ppl again... to my lil sis n bro still in ccs... good luck... 2 more yrs... then u can come join me at my school =D hehe... man... its not going to be the same anymore... ok... so i'm going to try to start blogging again every day so ppl know what's going on w/ my life... *sigh*... until next time... cya ppl... for those who come to cbc... i'll see u thanksgiving... for those who i only see at ccs... WINTER BREAK!!!

<---> at 4:27 PM