Dreaming...

<---> at 4:27 AM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

God is great... my week has ended so perfectly... God has shown me that his grace is definately sufficient for me... it's amazing.... but yea... i wuz all having a bad week w/ ppl n things n feeling slightly homesick n stressin over midterms... and today... it wuz just... iono... it made me happy... well... it sorta started thursday nite... my printer that died on me... i got it to work... so i wuz really happy about that... n then today... i got my asian am midterm back... did better than i expected... cuz i wuz thinking... if i feel like i got a B then i'll probably get a C... but yea... i actually did get a B... well B- but same difference... heh... good enough for me dude... esp if its the professor who graded my paper.... man... insane... n then music was so so... but yea... iono... then... chem midterm... wow... iono.. totally didn't feel really prepared for it... but yea... when i looked at the first problem... i wuz totally like... what the crap... iono how to do this... then i skipped over it n totally did everything else... which wuz pretty easy... n then when i came back to the first problem i wuz like... man this is easy... n then i like... iono... double tripple checked my answers... i'm feeling really confident about this midterm... if i skrew it over... i'll b soo depressed... but yea... i wuz happy n i saw brian n jon comming back from chem... so cool.. but yea... i started dancing in the halls when i got back... n like... i totally called my mom to tell her everything that's happened... then went to lunch... n went to the library... fell asleep twice... but i got work done too... n then... called my dad... did stuff... went to dinner... then ooo... getting picked up from reality... i met someone new... its amazing how u can always be constantly meeting new ppl every day.. yea... met tyler... then got driven to reality by phil... reality wuz cool... good stuff.... then afterwards... went to in n out... but it wuz too jammed packed... n then... ooo... jacob let me drive "bessie" to ihop which wuzn't far away.. but yea... i got to drive... i wuz sooo frickin scared.. hahaha... pathetic rn't i... just cuz i don't really drive... tho jacob wuz scared i couldn't drive at all.... hahaha... but yea... i drove... i have seriously never ever driven at night till today.. it wuz insane... at ihop... talked to ken about different things... n then later... went to pitzer house... man... steve n jesse r very very very good at guitar... i'm jealous... i sooo... gotta practice a lot a lot a lot.... man... we just hung out... played guitar... talked... ect... good stuff... oo i had real asian food.. it wuz sooo good.... oooo... i loved it... made me so happy... hahaha... n then... hahaha... comming back from pitzer... hahaha... jacob wuzn't driving in his lane... got pulled over by the cops.... n they thot he wuz drinking... n yea... hahaha.. it was pretty funny.. cuz like.... they asked where we were coming form... n we were like... church... n the cops had this really weird expression on their face... i wanted to just laugh... but yea... hahaha.. n they asked if jacob was drunk and all of us were like... of course not... none of us had been drinking anything... heh... the reason y they thought jacob was drunk cuz he wuzn't driving in the lines... hahaha... bessie's fogged up windows... it wuz too hard to see... but yea... got back to the ghetto at 3am... pretty sweet... n then jacob calls me to tell me that he got pulled over by the same cops...again... for not having a front plate... hahahaha... going out w/ aacf ppl is so fun...

<---> at 3:28 AM

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

hahaha... interesting day... well... actually classes were bleh...'cept music... hahaha... learned this lil ghanian dance... haha... it wuz weird... and then... in the afternoon after chem lab which btwn wuz really stupid i came back... started some hw... but it wuz really stressing me out... so i took a lil guitar break n felt so much better... n then did asian am studying... then... later aacf... wuz cool... God's grace rocks... heh... then jacob tried to pressure me into going out w/ them but i said i had to get back to the dorm to study... n he said that wuz useless... n then... yea... ken wuz being drunk off a gallon of milk... kinda crazy... but yea... but i guess the most interesting part wuz comming back... the girls on the floor were hungry... so we all ordered pizza... then i went n finished my chem hw.... n then ended up getting sucked into the other girl's truth or dare game... heh... they made alex run thru the guyz floor w/ her shirt off.. they made candice freak a guy on the elevator... which... poor guy... he wuz totally weirded out... like... ugh... n yea.. later they wanted to get some other ppl to flash someone.... i think later they went to the 7th floor to moon the chicano guyz... hahaha... crazy... but yea... the truth questions were pretty insane tooo... hahaha... i have so much fun on my floor its a wonder i get ne studying done...

<---> at 11:44 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

HAHAHA... i'm such a bad girl... yea... totally didn't leave the dorms until 9:58 for my 10:00 class... rock on! the tower rang when i wuz at the ucen n i started running... hahaha... wuzn't that late... hahaha... but yea... bad bad bad... oo then chem tutoring... I FINALLY FRICKIN UNDERSTAND HOW TO DO THE PROBLEM NOW!!! dude... took me forever... so ugly... then came back... went to lunch w/ everyone... dude... britney keeps messin w/ me about the way i walk... something about its ghetto... or its black.... or its sexy... or its.. iono!!! but ugh... makes me self conscious... man... i walk the way i walk... then... lesse... went back to my room... printed out math hw... then walked to calc... did some hw durring calc... fell asleep... so bored n didn't understand wut the heck she wuz getting at w/ her examples n stuff... i wuz so bored i started doing my hw left handed n only switching to my right hand just to take notes... heh... i'm crazy... then i went to the CLAS courtyard to do hw b4 the tutoring session... man... wuz sitting there doing calc n chem for so long... n it wuz so foggy n freezing cold... it wuz insane... then... o man... my CLAS tutor for calc is a gazillion times better than my professor... well.. yea i'm exagerating... but yea... i took so much notes n i actually understood wut wuz going on... it wuz great... then went to dinner... came back... finished as much calc as i could... then totally got pissed off at someone... but couldn't do nething about it 'cept close my door... i keep telling myself... don't cause a scene... don't yell at ne1... ur living w/ these ppl for a year... dont' need to make enemies now... that would b horrible... yea... then later... aww... i totally took up smithey's time... n he's so nice... he helped me w/ my calc soo much... help me w/ so many problems... but in return i had to proof his essay... heh... then when i went up helped him then... haha... got distracted... ended up talking w/ josh for a super long time... then came back down... and got dragged into a convo that i felt wuz... well.. iono... hahaha... it wuz funny... but unnecessary... but i guess i'll need to have that talk sooner or later... haha.. now that made it sound so weird... owell... hahaha... i should get some sleep and then i soooo needa study asian am tomorrow... ugh... bad game...

thanks andy for listening to me vent... u rock... ur a cool friend and a cool lil bro

<---> at 11:30 PM

Monday, October 10, 2005

woke up really late today... bad girl... hahaha... i had an 8am class n i was still washing up at 7:30... had to eat breakfast on the run today... not cool... got my quiz back from last week in calc... dude... i wuz soooo supposed to get 100% but the TA graded it wrong... growl... the rest of my classes were so so... heh... i sat nxt to a really cute guy durring chem... hahaha... but its ok... i'll never see him again... tho some of the girls on my floor thinks i should try to stalk him... hahaha... but yea... then came back... went to lunch w/ josh... =D .. basically.. we were supposed to have lunch n go study... but then i took too long... haha... so basically he just hung out w/ me until he had to leave at 1:00... haha.. i forgot where he went.. but yea... i went to buy tickets at campbell hall... then went to the library.. finished one essay for asian am... then went back to my room and played guitar... felt so good to be playing again... but then the girls all came in n wuz like.. u play guitar?!?!? man... i need to go somewhere where no one will bug me about my guitar playing... then went to asian am... found out that i didn't need to read this week... man... waste my time... *sigh*... and i needa study for the midterm.. i don't take tests!!! esp not timed write tests!!! argh!!! evilness!!! yea... n i still gotta do chem... n i still don't know how to do a problem... *sigh*... n i gotta start this week's chem hw... i'll go to the library again tomorrow... went to aacf's small group meeting w/ priscilla and anna... i really like it... but i feel like i should check out real life's small group at least once b4 i decide... iono... but i really like the ppl at aacf... came back.. ugh.. study time...

<---> at 10:33 PM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

awwww... i miss my da jie and my di di.... *sigh*... it just makes it harder that i only see them for a lil while n they leave again.... n dorinda couldn't even come up to sb w/ me... *sniff*... newayz... i got my guitar!!! happy happy... so... yea... as u can tell... i'm just... iono... mixed emotions... so after my parents left me in sb again, went to study in the library w/ jessica... hahaha... i totally fell asleep on my asian am reading.... line is a bad little girl... heh... i did get some reading in tho...heh.. like 5 pgs!!! -___- owell... newayz... then went to the beach w/ kristine n jessica... sorta doing a tanning/studying thing on the beach... got another 5 pgs in... woot go me!!! *voice drips w/ sarcasm*... newayz... went to dinner... then... went to the library... wuz there for 3 hrs strait just reading asian am... totally forced myself to finish it... by the time i wuz done it wuz almost 9:30... n i wuz like... dude its so dark... do i want to walk to the dorms by myself? but yea... being the wuss that i am... i wuz too scared... so i called CSO... i had an escort back to the dorms!!! hahaha... his name wuz albert... he wuz really nice... so i got back to the dorms safely... man... now i gotta study for midterm this friday... sucks... -___-

<---> at 10:17 PM

Friday, October 07, 2005

ugh.. today... the whole frickin morning... i had a super duper bad headache only on the left side of my head... it wuz like... horrible... all over the left side... n only the left side... couldn't consentrate in asian am couldn't concentrate in music... n then chem... i wuz taking notes n i like totally fell asleep looking at my notes... n then this girl nxt to me asks me a question... its funny cuz she'd never know that she actually woke me up when she asked the question... but then all i did was look up and pretend i knew what wuz going on... n i totally answered her question correctly... hahaha... i'm good... so sneaky... after lunch... tried to get help on chem... didn't work... cuz no one wuz availible... grrr... then went to the library at like 3 n stayed there for 2 hrs... finished my music reading... then as i wuz walking out of the library... saw duncan again... so we ran a tour of part of the library together... it wuz so funny cuz he wuz saying how the rows of books were like discrimunating against the fat n the disabled in the electric chairs... and being caroline... i said.. dude... they're soooo discrimunating against short ppl too... i can't even reach the top shelf... o gosh.... b4 i knew what wuz going on he totally picked me up backpack n all until i could reach the top shelf... i wuz like... o_O ... that wuz really interesting... then later... went out w/ naree and a we took a couple of girls from my floor... went to state street... fun fun... italian resturaunt for dinner... yummy!!! soo fun too... but yea... so fun... came back... currently being pressured to go out again... i'm totally gonna like... keep going to church on fridays... stay away from the parties... but yea... lets see how long b4 i crack...

i can't wait for tomorrow!!! my precious!!! heh... parents r bringing my guitar tomorrow... so excited...

<---> at 9:36 PM

Thursday, October 06, 2005

so nice to sleep in.. woke up at like 9:40 today... got ready for class... classes were blah... like... very blah... i seem to always sleep in calc... then did chem lab write up while waiting to go to tutoring... saw jon... asked him to help.. then saw steve... turns out he has tutoring after i did... n he wuz telling me how good his tutor wuz... sooo not fair... i'm always so bored in my tutoring section... so after mine... i went n sat in his... dude... his tutor teaches so way better... *sigh*... so basically i sat thru 2 hrs of calc tutoring... the second hour so much better than the first... but neways after his tutoring section i went n changed mine to the same one as his... cuz his wuz sooo much better... n then... went back to my room... got most of my chem lab done went to dinner... got back... totally just stalked smithey for help... finished chem lab... attempted to do chem... so distracting here in the dorms tho... so later at like 9 went to the library w/ josh... i woulda gone earlier... but jessica didn't want me walking there by myself... n then... frickin did chem for 2 hrs... just sat there n did so many chem problems... *sigh*... finished all i could... but didn't understand 3... but by that time it wuz like 11:15 so i asked josh if he wanted to leave... came back... heh... totally walked right past jessica... heh... i'm so drained from studying... but yea... n the girls were messing w/ me tonite... accusing me of liking this boy... who will remain unnamed... but yea... they keep teasing me!!! >_< .. n the thing is... i don't like him like that... he's a cool friend... but yea... argh... but they didn't listen.. they just dragged me to their room for girly time to try to dig the info out of me... but they didn't listen... so they dont' get to hear my say... heh... i have interesting floormates... but yea.... gotta sleep... ima b tired tomorrow... but i'm also excited.... my parents r comming down on saturday...n they're bringing my guitar!!! woot!!!

<---> at 11:54 PM

ugh... this morning... totally freaked myself out... i guess i pressed off instead of snooze and went back into bed... n when i woke up... i wuz like... o crap... ima b late... don't tell me i've super duper overslept n i've missed class or something... that would totally suck... but yea... all my classes... blah... chem lab... really weird... and... yea... someone like to teach me how to do standard deviation??? yea.... i'm patheticly stupid... i know... but newayz... after that... totally went to drop in tutoring.... finished my math.. woot woot... at least i finished one thing... but dude.. the stupid system pissed me off... i wuz soooo right... but it kept saying i wuz wrong... but yea... newayz... started on chem stuff... cuz i'm so procrastinating on asian am... bad girl... but yea... so i wuz sitting in there.. n jessica came to visit me... good stuff... heh... she let me try this thing called an ooey gooey... or something like that... n i wuz like... ok... so i try it... n i wuz like... what's in it? i wuz chewing slowly n stuff trying to place the tastes... but b4 i could figure nething out... she's like... yea... it has pot in it... i wuz like... O_O n i froze... she totally started cracking up n stuff... man... i'm wayyyyy to gulible... *sigh*... heh... newayz... then... went to dinner w/ jessica kristine n josh... then went to aacf w/ josh... great message... God's grace is sufficent for us... no matter what we do... its great... and then... fellowship time... dude... fil n nathan... man... so funny... speaking in cantonese n chinglish... so super funny... they were amazed i could speak canto... hahaha... i wuz amazed w/ myself w/ the amout of canto i used... but yea... different story... hahaha.. they were so funny tho... n jacob wuz all like... speak english!!! hahaha... or speak spanish!!! hahaha... the funny mexican in an asian group... he's cool tho... josh left to go back to the dorms... i stay n keep talking... cuz jacob n elaine told me that i could always study later... heh... they said i'm a freshie... n need to learn to not study hard but leech off others... take advantage of resources... n not stress studying... so... i'm like... ok ok fine... n i totally like.. bike back to my dorm n put things away n lock up my bike ect... then called jacob n told him i wuz ready so i had to wait for him to drive over... heh.. when he pulled up... i wuz walking towards the car.. n he called me just to tell me i wuz walking too slow n needed to run... man... he wuz laughing at me when i did start running... thats like... soo not cool.. but yea... hahaha... w/e... went out for boba... good stuff.. thai tea... yummm.... ooo n started corn rowing daniel's hair again... hahaha... its gonna b like... iono... a recurring thing now... but nxt time i'll sooo have to bring hair ties w/ me... good stuff.. hahaha... he already acts black enough... but i'm totally gonna turn him completely black... hahaha... he calls himself a borean(black korean)... crazy... but yea... then jacob n sarah were hungry... n francis suggested in n out... so i wuz like.. sure.. i'll go for the fellowship... n i totally convinced eric to go also... hahaha... good stuff... fellowshiping w/ other christians... good meaningful convos.... yea... we stayed there sooo long... talking so much... we got kicked out cuz they were closed.... hahaha.. so i actually didn't get back till almost 2am... hahaha... such a party animal... but its ok... my first class is at 11 tomorrow... or should i say... today... hahaha...

<---> at 2:25 AM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

hmmm... i barely know what happened today... 'cept i fell asleep completely in calc today... yea... then i ditched out on my clas tutoring thing... n did some other stuff... went back n tried to study... then... so funny... got invited to dinner... but rejected them n went ourselves... heh... yea... n then... lesse... o yea... smithey complained that i rather walk half way across campus to clas rather than go upstairs n visit him so he could help me w/ math... so i wuz like.. fine... i see how it is... so... i did some more calc... got like... 5O% done... it wuz nice... n then... did chem until andrew came back... then totally stalked him for calc help... i'm pathetic yes... spent so long there... but yay!! only 3 more problems left... then i'll b free of math for the week... heh... pathetic yes... but i hate to think about these things... n i have lotsa asian am to study for... ugh... midterm nxt friday... argh... evil... so yea... maybe i should sleep... cuz its getting harder n harder to wake up in the mornings... hahahaha... i keep saying that... but i still don't sleep

<---> at 11:49 PM

Monday, October 03, 2005

i wuz so tired today!!! falling asleep rite after my quiz in calc section... then almost crashing on my way to asian am... not good... biking is dangerous i tell u... and then... falling alseep in music... n only semi understanding chem... heh... not good.... caroline is a bad little girl... yes... newayz.. went to lunch w/ kristine britney duncan n josh... haha... it wuz funny... went to DLG... looked at the line n went to ortega... haha... the 2 extremely innocent boys who hahaha... lets just say... stocked up for a hungry day... hahaha... so funny... i should totally bring my water bottle in n fill up there too... then after lunch... went to the library w/ josh n totally just read asian am for 3 hrs strait... dude... i'm telling u... its crazy... but i've caught up on the reading... now if only i'll stay that way... i should start now... hahaha... but i'm doing chem... mebe if i do chem n math really fast... i'll get those out of the way n i can focus on w/e random music hw i have n my asian am reading... but yea... i wuz so paranoid i'd have a quiz in asian am section today... but when i went it wuz totally cool cuz there wuzn't a quiz n he said it wouldn't b that specific newayz... good stuff... then... just hung out had to pump my tires cuz it felt flat this morning... well.. not that flat... but mebe i'm just obsessive compulsive... weird things bug me to no end... hahaha... random yes... but yea... ooo... and i requested to change my meal plan to 10... *dances around* mebe i won't have so many meals left over now... grr... but i can't exactly change that till nxt quarter... owell... it'll work... i barely eat newayz... ok.. then i went to freeman house for the aacf bible study... so super fun... had dinner there... n played this really really funny game... it had two parts a drawing part n a sentence part... its really weird... its like... u write a sentence n u pass the paper on... then the nxt person has to draw a pict to the sentence... n then u fold the paper down so that only the pict is visible n pass it on.. then the nxt person needs to guess what the sentence was... and then u fold the pict down so only the sentence is visible n pass it on.. and the nxt person needs to draw for the sentence they see.. it just keeps going until u reach the end of the paper... it wuz so funny... my sentence wuz so random... hahaha... like something out of a kindergarten reader... n it came back even more random than it started out... hahaha... it went from... "the fat cat sat on the hat that was on the mat"... to... *cough*... this is so weird... nvm... if u really wanna know... ask me... or stop by my room to see it... its pretty funny... but yea... i'd feel so weird puting it in my blog... hahaha... but it wuz so fun... n i've gotten so many more phone #s... stalk more ppl for church rides!!!! hahaha... more church hopping... hahaha... ok newayz... ummm... yea... i should go do my chem... pretend to b a good girl

<---> at 10:50 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

i just realized... going to college has given me a lot of firsts.. its been my first time living away from home... first time attending college classes and keeping myself on top of my work... first time i have to take care of going to breakfast lunch n dinner by myself... i've experienced my first concert w/ moshing... n now my first christian concert... its so great but newayz... i wuz really tired last nite cuz i didn't get back till 2 so i just crashed n went to sleep... but this is basically what i did yesterday... woke up really early... then got picked up at around 10 by brian... drove 2 hrs to LA... then just hung out w/ ppl in aacf outside of the LA convention center... man... it wuz crazy... some ppl went there to camp out ect at 3am in the morning and so we were first in line... it wuz super cool... so we played crainium... which wuz fun n crazy... haha... daniel guessed the weirdest things... and yea... random stuff... waited in line for so long... but u know wut wuz cool? i saw mike n nancy cuz they were there w/ little spark... ooo... then i saw kari later... i wuz so happy!!! ahh!!! i miss my old friends... but yea... the concert wuz cool... robbie c... shane n shane... dude those 2 have very good voices... then ERWIN MCMANUS SPOKE!!! dude... i couldn't believe that no one at aacf has ever heard of him... super great speaker... the message wuz totally awesome... heh.. he spoke about the barbarian way again... i've actually been reading his book on the barbarian way... but yea... when i heard it again... iono... i just started crying... cuz... i know i'm that civilized christian... who's just like... meh... i've got God... he n i r cool... i'm a good kid... but i never go the extra step to be more... to b totally used by God... to totally have God use me for something amazing... n i guess it hurts cuz sometimes... i'm not sure how to even get there... i'm like stuck in the concept of civilized christianity that iono how to jump out of it... but newayz... after that.. woot!! david crowder band!!! super cool... good music... amazing songs... i had so much fun... just being totally into music n worshiping God w/ everything... haha... its funny... cuz i really don't dance... but when it comes to worship songs... haha... i'll dance for God... when i'm really into it... worship songs make me dance... haha... good stuff... iono if ne1 would understand that tho... haha... so so so much fun... ooo n i got a free cd!!! so happy!! so great... then went to roscoes for dinner it wuz so late... i wuz so hungry... ordered something... but man... i'm such a girl... totally couldn't finish it... so i brought it back to my dorm... heh... more food... *sigh*... haha wayyy too much food... man... i totally don't need so much food... but yea... got back home at about 2... crashed n went to sleep...

today... church wuz great... yes... good stuff... don't let ur feelings get in the way of growing in God cuz once ur a christian... ur cool w/ him.. don't stress over things or hold grudges... cuz u open urself up for satan who feeds on ur doubts n tries to destroy u... so when we have ne problem of ne kind... don't present ourelves to satan by totally blowing the situation out of proportion but present ourselves to God n let him take care of things... ok... afterwards... went out to lunch on state street... santa barbara sandwitch shop... good food... n then went into... ack... forgot wut it wuz called... but bert wanted to buy some snowboarding gear... yea... so we spent a long time in there... haha... justin wuz totally amused by these boots that had cable instead of shoelace... n all u do is totally skrew it on... it wuz cool... then bert drove me back... so i went up... tred to study... totally just wanted to sleep.. so i took a nap.. finished asian am reading... n now gotta re-copy notes n study for my test tomorrow... n then i gotta study for oo... calc quiz tomorrow too... bleh... not cool... but yea... random thot... i think i'm gonna change my meal plan to 10 meals... cuz i'm having meals left over... heh... n i'm going to freebirds for dinner tonite... man... hahaha... such a waste of meals... o well...

<---> at 4:49 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

today... classes were bleh... 'cept for music... heh... lil randomly made instruments... my rubberband went flying in the middle of my playing... >_< hahaha... but newayz... then walked all the way to carillo had lunch.. heh... my sandwitch wuz falling appart... and then... walked to the beach... it wuz pretty nice... walking back wuz crazy tho... cuz we took a different path... man... walked around the whole lagoon... so hot n tired... bleh... then went back... kristine n i did laundry ugh... that wuz so long n annoying... but when it wuz done... mmmmm...yummy... warm freshly dried laundry... but some of it didn't dry... so i laid it out on my bed in front of the window but yea.... folded my clothes n put them away like a good girl... and then... lesse... hung out w/ kristine n jessica went to dinner... totally got pressured to go party tonite... n totally did not want to go party... totally wuz not planing on going out at all tonite... but then i called ken to ask about the concert and ask about church if there wuz no more space for the concert... but ken wuz totally like... don't worry about it... if u still wanna go just come... n God will provide... so i wuz like.. ok cool... then he asked if i wuz going to go to reality tonite... n i wuz like wuts that? heh... so he wuz like telling me how it wuz another option they give for ppl who don't go out partying... n he invited me to go so i wuz like sure... cuz i totally needed an excuse not to go partying... ugh... i'll hide from party animals... but yea... worship wuz awesome and the message wuz awesome... the speaker talked about grace... God's wonderful grace... its soo good to be reminded about these things... cuz... ugh... i really dont' wanna become calloused n junk... that would b so sad... but yea... i had a really good time... and then... afterwards... met a whole bunch of ppl... then kristen went back cuz she wuz tired... but i went w/ everyone else to go to in n out to hang out n fellowship n stuff like that... it wuz so fun... debated and discussed things in the bible... i really really need to memorize my verses n where they r n what they say... i have such a hard time backing it up w/ a concrete reference... but i know its in there... cuz i've learned it b4... heh... pathetic.. i know... i think its ccs... they teach u so much... but its so accademic... u don't really make it part of ur life... but yea... n then... ooo... daniel said he wanted to b black... so i wuz like... don't shave ur head.. u should totally corn row it n wear a durag... totally... hahaha... so funny... so i got to corn row his hair... but i did them way too big... so he looked kinda girly.. hahaha... but it wuz fun... man... partying w/ the christians... so fun... so crazy... but so great... cuz there's nothing to b scared of...

<---> at 12:13 AM