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Friday, April 30, 2004
so a funny thing happened to day... here's the story... :
so i had just emerged from my midget hole... and drove off... then i came back n parked in front of my driveway and piled things in my driveway.... i'm talking to someone on the other side of the street and someone that is parked in front of me... then... out of nowhere jimmy comes driving up n he crashes into me... n doesn't stop there but continues to push me along until i stop... and that is when we get out of our car and get into an arguement...
here's his side of the story... :
so i'm parked infront of my driveway... and deborah is double parked next to me... and so because there is no where for him to drive... he swerves closer to the sidewalk and hits me....
listening to this story... he's still at fault... and he agreed with it until he realized that he wuz at fault... then he refused to give me his drivers license number refused to give me proof of his insurance... so i threatened to take down his license plate number but then he didn't have one... so i had no way of reporting this to the police even though i had a witness which would be deborah....
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ok... here's what really happened... :
so i go to my locker and i open it... and i leave to go find out my score for my bio test.... i come back and i'm puting stuff in front of my locker... and then i stand infront of it talking to kevin and deborah... out of nowhere jimmy comes with a huge stack of books and binders and tries to run me over... and he manages to push me along for a while until i "fought back" and got back to my locker... jimmy... comes and says i'm wrong... cuz he claims that he had the right of way cuz we at a T intersection and i was pulling out of the cross road... and he called my locker my midget hole... and so thats how everything started... so... i said... that if my locker was my midget hole then the area in front of my locker behind the yellow line would be my drive way... and thus... since i was standing in front of the yellow line... i was parked right in front of my driveway... which is leagal considering that its my own driveway... and so... he technically hit a parked car... so he was at fault... and so thats when he changed his story to how deborah was double parking and so he couldn't get around so he ended up crashing into me... but if i was was parked infront of my driveway... then he must have swerved closer to the sidewalk and if he did that... he should have stopped instead of driving right into a parked car... and so when i said that he was at fault... he agreed until he realized what he did... well... the funny thing was... sheridan was listening to our conversation the whole time and didn't understand our whole arguement... she thot that all of us had our licenses and were driving for real and all of this happened for real... it was pretty interesting... even though jimmy kept hinting that our fabricated stories were very interesting... hahaha... it took her a long time before she understood that everything just happened right there at the lockers...
so i had just emerged from my midget hole... and drove off... then i came back n parked in front of my driveway and piled things in my driveway.... i'm talking to someone on the other side of the street and someone that is parked in front of me... then... out of nowhere jimmy comes driving up n he crashes into me... n doesn't stop there but continues to push me along until i stop... and that is when we get out of our car and get into an arguement...
here's his side of the story... :
so i'm parked infront of my driveway... and deborah is double parked next to me... and so because there is no where for him to drive... he swerves closer to the sidewalk and hits me....
listening to this story... he's still at fault... and he agreed with it until he realized that he wuz at fault... then he refused to give me his drivers license number refused to give me proof of his insurance... so i threatened to take down his license plate number but then he didn't have one... so i had no way of reporting this to the police even though i had a witness which would be deborah....
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ok... here's what really happened... :
so i go to my locker and i open it... and i leave to go find out my score for my bio test.... i come back and i'm puting stuff in front of my locker... and then i stand infront of it talking to kevin and deborah... out of nowhere jimmy comes with a huge stack of books and binders and tries to run me over... and he manages to push me along for a while until i "fought back" and got back to my locker... jimmy... comes and says i'm wrong... cuz he claims that he had the right of way cuz we at a T intersection and i was pulling out of the cross road... and he called my locker my midget hole... and so thats how everything started... so... i said... that if my locker was my midget hole then the area in front of my locker behind the yellow line would be my drive way... and thus... since i was standing in front of the yellow line... i was parked right in front of my driveway... which is leagal considering that its my own driveway... and so... he technically hit a parked car... so he was at fault... and so thats when he changed his story to how deborah was double parking and so he couldn't get around so he ended up crashing into me... but if i was was parked infront of my driveway... then he must have swerved closer to the sidewalk and if he did that... he should have stopped instead of driving right into a parked car... and so when i said that he was at fault... he agreed until he realized what he did... well... the funny thing was... sheridan was listening to our conversation the whole time and didn't understand our whole arguement... she thot that all of us had our licenses and were driving for real and all of this happened for real... it was pretty interesting... even though jimmy kept hinting that our fabricated stories were very interesting... hahaha... it took her a long time before she understood that everything just happened right there at the lockers...
Thursday, April 29, 2004
u know wut sucks? ppl who call themselves ur friends but their actions doing always speak that they truly think of u as one... ppl who say they're ur friend... n even if its a given fact that they r so many times smarter than u... ask u for hw help and refuse to understand until they've sufficently detracted a couple of hours from your hw time... or ppl who call themselves ur friends but if there r ppl of a higher social group(such as more popular) who seem to want to hang w/ them but dun exactly wanna hang w/ u... they ditch u for the other ppl... n never say aword to try to get u to join too... they just don't seem to care enough to want to do something about u being left to go find someone else to hang w/...
Monday, April 26, 2004
omg... something's wrong w/ me... i've been doing the same combo for how many times this yr??? and guess wut happens... after soccer i go open my locker get some stuff out then i close it... then i remember that i forgot to take something out n forgot to put something in so then i try to open it again... but it wouldn't open... O_o then i tried again... n it still won't open... o_O then i tried again... and by this time i had the sinking feeling something wuz wrong... daz when i started to panic... omg... i tried soooo many times n i couldn't get the right combo!!!! yea... i'm hecka smart like that... so... after a long time... still not knowing my combo cuz my mind decided to blank on me... i went to the office... heh... i felt very stupid... yea... wuts wrong w/ me??? mrs lee asked me wut my locker combo wuz... n i didn't even remember that!!! my mind kept blanking... but then i thot hard enough n i got my locker number... so i told her my locker #... mrs. lee sooo graciously gave my combo to me... and guess wut.... it didn't even look vaguely familiar.... -____- yea... i have problems... but i thanked her n went to test out the combo i just got... guess wat... it opened!!! i wuz sooo amazed... and the combo still didn't sound familiar... heh... so i went back n thanked her again... heh... randomly blanking out mind = lotsa problems...
Sunday, April 25, 2004
hahaha... i think i'm losing it... =P i alwayz have the weirdest thots going thru my head and i'm alwayz crazy enough to entertain them... heh...
line entertaining weird thots in her head = weird stories n weird pictures...
hahaha... i wonder wut job would b good for me that would involve cleaning my system of my weird imagination(using my imagination) and not involve too much serious writing... but also is a job that isn't a joke(stable job)...
so much to think about...
*sigh*... i can't concentrate nemore... too many random thots going thru my head... so weird...
line entertaining weird thots in her head = weird stories n weird pictures...
hahaha... i wonder wut job would b good for me that would involve cleaning my system of my weird imagination(using my imagination) and not involve too much serious writing... but also is a job that isn't a joke(stable job)...
so much to think about...
*sigh*... i can't concentrate nemore... too many random thots going thru my head... so weird...
Thursday, April 22, 2004
sooooooooooo hyper hyperness today during bio... heh... iono wuts wrong w/ me... =P hahaha... o yea... worship wuz cool today... u know wut i realize... when i sing i can usually hit high notes... but when i hold a microphone... i can't hit nething... >.< weirdness..
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
today...
history wuz craziness... hahaha... tommy... "*ahem!!!!!!!!* i need a tissue" he goes to the paper towel dispenser n grabs a piece... n comes back to the table... he grabs my pencil n writes... "hey what is up andrew?"... folds up the paper n writes... "To:Andrew" then he passes it to me telling me to pass it to andrew.. hahaha... andrew's respons... "hi"... hahaha... so crazy... passing the note back n forth... cuz tommy sits on one end of the table n drew sits at the other end... n then me n dorinda who r doing the note passing in the middle get to read everything... so crazy... so wut happens is like... half way thru the convo dorinda cuts in... "tommy so bad... distracting ppl... ur having too much fun... fun is evil... ur evil..." then tommy decides to talk to both dorinda n drew at the same time... he told dorinda... "stop distracting me..." n when dorinda didn't respond he wuz like... "hey i'm still talking to u woman!!!!" hahahaha... craziness... so the convo continues w/ drew writing blunt answers to answer all tommy's questions... then when the paper started to fill up drew ended it w/ "bbl" hahaha... so tommy who wuz soooo highly amused by this was like... "*ahem!!!!!* i think i need another tissue... " so he throws away the first convo n then writes "andrew: i'm still talking to u!!! dor:what did u get on ur SAT? caroline:what did you get on ur SAT?" then he folds up the paper n writes... "to all 3 of you" omg... so crazy... drew's response... "i forgot what you said" hahaha... so crazy... our note passing lasted the whole period... tommy wuz sooo amused...
later... made up my bio lab... that wuz pretty crazy... the soph guyz kept watching me... hahaha...drew wanted the extra frogs... to mess around with... hahaha... "are the stuff that preserves the frogs flamable?" haha... so funny... i told drew to go try but miss chu stopped us... hahaha... i grossed miss chu out!!! hahaha... ripping out the tongue... =P pointed out all the junk to miss chu n she let me look at other stuff w/ her book figuring out wut everything wuz... then she let me play wit it... hahaha... i think my frog wuz a bi or tranz or something.. hahaha... had testes and an ovaduct? haha... when she let me mess around... thats when the guyz started to seriously watch wuz it wuz doing... cuz i wuz messing around soo much... hahaha... i wuz being violent but i guess they thot it wuz cool... hahaha... ripping out the different frog parts... cut open the heart... ripped off the leg... ripped off the testes... heh... had an argument w/ richard cuz he didn't think that frogs would have testes... had to explain... then his question wuz... "wuts the difference btwn balls n testes?" omg... crazy... so thus my interesting bio period talking to soph guyz making them laugh cuz i wuz ripping things from my frog.... yea... i'm weird like that... amazingly i had so much fun... yea... bio wuz crazy today... i wonder wut we'll do on friday... stupid quiet study hall w/ other classes in rm 19? no fun... heh... mebe i'll work on some stupid stuff... =P
history wuz craziness... hahaha... tommy... "*ahem!!!!!!!!* i need a tissue" he goes to the paper towel dispenser n grabs a piece... n comes back to the table... he grabs my pencil n writes... "hey what is up andrew?"... folds up the paper n writes... "To:Andrew" then he passes it to me telling me to pass it to andrew.. hahaha... andrew's respons... "hi"... hahaha... so crazy... passing the note back n forth... cuz tommy sits on one end of the table n drew sits at the other end... n then me n dorinda who r doing the note passing in the middle get to read everything... so crazy... so wut happens is like... half way thru the convo dorinda cuts in... "tommy so bad... distracting ppl... ur having too much fun... fun is evil... ur evil..." then tommy decides to talk to both dorinda n drew at the same time... he told dorinda... "stop distracting me..." n when dorinda didn't respond he wuz like... "hey i'm still talking to u woman!!!!" hahahaha... craziness... so the convo continues w/ drew writing blunt answers to answer all tommy's questions... then when the paper started to fill up drew ended it w/ "bbl" hahaha... so tommy who wuz soooo highly amused by this was like... "*ahem!!!!!* i think i need another tissue... " so he throws away the first convo n then writes "andrew: i'm still talking to u!!! dor:what did u get on ur SAT? caroline:what did you get on ur SAT?" then he folds up the paper n writes... "to all 3 of you" omg... so crazy... drew's response... "i forgot what you said" hahaha... so crazy... our note passing lasted the whole period... tommy wuz sooo amused...
later... made up my bio lab... that wuz pretty crazy... the soph guyz kept watching me... hahaha...drew wanted the extra frogs... to mess around with... hahaha... "are the stuff that preserves the frogs flamable?" haha... so funny... i told drew to go try but miss chu stopped us... hahaha... i grossed miss chu out!!! hahaha... ripping out the tongue... =P pointed out all the junk to miss chu n she let me look at other stuff w/ her book figuring out wut everything wuz... then she let me play wit it... hahaha... i think my frog wuz a bi or tranz or something.. hahaha... had testes and an ovaduct? haha... when she let me mess around... thats when the guyz started to seriously watch wuz it wuz doing... cuz i wuz messing around soo much... hahaha... i wuz being violent but i guess they thot it wuz cool... hahaha... ripping out the different frog parts... cut open the heart... ripped off the leg... ripped off the testes... heh... had an argument w/ richard cuz he didn't think that frogs would have testes... had to explain... then his question wuz... "wuts the difference btwn balls n testes?" omg... crazy... so thus my interesting bio period talking to soph guyz making them laugh cuz i wuz ripping things from my frog.... yea... i'm weird like that... amazingly i had so much fun... yea... bio wuz crazy today... i wonder wut we'll do on friday... stupid quiet study hall w/ other classes in rm 19? no fun... heh... mebe i'll work on some stupid stuff... =P
Sunday, April 18, 2004
O_o
... today wuz a weird day... *sigh*... so i show up late for church... and i'm supposed to be doing the ppt slides like clicking them... but then... like... i seriously didn't know wut i wuz doing cuz they didn't have all the slides on the ppt print out... so i kinda clicked when i should and hoped it would have something... omg...sooo lost... then... sunday school wuz pretty cool... learing about the law or something like that... n as always... i come up w/ the weirdest questions... heh... cuz we were talking about how women were under the law... if she were married to one guy then she couldn't marry another... only if her husband dies then she can marry someone else... so my question rite away wuz... wut happens if she kills her husband... heh... daz y ppl think i'm weird... cuz that wuz like my first reaction when i heard this...(i think this is also y ppl think i'm evil, violent n bloodthirsty) *sigh* owell... its all in my head... my weird thots all the time... cuz yeah... i'm just slightly... newayz... then after church... went to the library.... thats when things started going bad... i'm like researching for history... n using the comp to look thru the library catalog... n then... like... i'm standing there... n i get this headache... n i start getting dizzy... n i think i swayed a lil... omg... i wuz so scared i wuz going to faint... cuz... i had a hard time focusing too... n then i wuz hoping no one would notice me... >.< yeah... i caught myself a couple of times.... then like... i walked off to look for more books n like... things seemed kinda iono how to discribe it... kinda dreamy like... iono... but like... i didn't feel like i wuz gonna fall over nemore... but yea... still had a headache... ok... then later... dude... so many books... evil history project -___- i checked out 10 books? (some for me n some for dorinda) newayz... there wuz this one book i guess that wouldn't demagnitize... n so... i walked thru the gate thing... n it beeped... -___- and then i went to the desk n they tried to demagnitize all my books... n they sent me off again... n it beeped again!!! after like... iono my 3rd or 4th time... ppl were looking n laughing at me... -___- *sigh*... sux... then they figured it all out... n then they gave me this pass to take the book... newayz... going to the car... almost dropped the books n they were so many!!! n it just so happened that mrs. jew wuz in walking in front of me... so she took half my books n walked me to my car... ok... got home... n wuz gonna go into the house... n my mom wuz like... u have ur keys rite? n i wuz like "yeah" cuz like... i almost never leave the house w/o my keys... but then... i stuck my hand into my bag/purse n it wuzn't in the pocket i put it in... O_O daz when i kinda started to get worried.... so i check the car again... while my mom opened the door... n then i go into the house... n i check all possible place where my keys coulda been... n i checked my bag like iono how many times... n finally i told my mom... n by this time i wuz feeling hecka stupid... cuz i mighta dropped it at the library... -____- but like... i didn't even go into that pocket of my bag the whole time there... n if it did drop i woulda heard it... or so i thot... >.< well newayz... i kept trying to think back where i coulda been... omg i wuz feeling hecka scared n stupid.... my keys!!!! *sigh*... then i checked my bag again... same pocket... just felt the top part this time also... n there were my keys... -___- i'm so smart... *sigh*... i'm so serious... somethings wrong w/ me today... i'm still all O_o and on top of that... i'm not exactly done w/ my hw... i still have to somehow write a bibliography using the books that i just got today n write a first draft for english and not make ne grammar mistakes cuz if i do... i can get no higher than a C on the essay and thats only if i get a perfect on my structure n message thingy... but since i know i suck at writing... if my grammar is skrewd up my grade would probably b no higher than a D-.... -___- life is lovely... *sigh*...
... today wuz a weird day... *sigh*... so i show up late for church... and i'm supposed to be doing the ppt slides like clicking them... but then... like... i seriously didn't know wut i wuz doing cuz they didn't have all the slides on the ppt print out... so i kinda clicked when i should and hoped it would have something... omg...sooo lost... then... sunday school wuz pretty cool... learing about the law or something like that... n as always... i come up w/ the weirdest questions... heh... cuz we were talking about how women were under the law... if she were married to one guy then she couldn't marry another... only if her husband dies then she can marry someone else... so my question rite away wuz... wut happens if she kills her husband... heh... daz y ppl think i'm weird... cuz that wuz like my first reaction when i heard this...(i think this is also y ppl think i'm evil, violent n bloodthirsty) *sigh* owell... its all in my head... my weird thots all the time... cuz yeah... i'm just slightly... newayz... then after church... went to the library.... thats when things started going bad... i'm like researching for history... n using the comp to look thru the library catalog... n then... like... i'm standing there... n i get this headache... n i start getting dizzy... n i think i swayed a lil... omg... i wuz so scared i wuz going to faint... cuz... i had a hard time focusing too... n then i wuz hoping no one would notice me... >.< yeah... i caught myself a couple of times.... then like... i walked off to look for more books n like... things seemed kinda iono how to discribe it... kinda dreamy like... iono... but like... i didn't feel like i wuz gonna fall over nemore... but yea... still had a headache... ok... then later... dude... so many books... evil history project -___- i checked out 10 books? (some for me n some for dorinda) newayz... there wuz this one book i guess that wouldn't demagnitize... n so... i walked thru the gate thing... n it beeped... -___- and then i went to the desk n they tried to demagnitize all my books... n they sent me off again... n it beeped again!!! after like... iono my 3rd or 4th time... ppl were looking n laughing at me... -___- *sigh*... sux... then they figured it all out... n then they gave me this pass to take the book... newayz... going to the car... almost dropped the books n they were so many!!! n it just so happened that mrs. jew wuz in walking in front of me... so she took half my books n walked me to my car... ok... got home... n wuz gonna go into the house... n my mom wuz like... u have ur keys rite? n i wuz like "yeah" cuz like... i almost never leave the house w/o my keys... but then... i stuck my hand into my bag/purse n it wuzn't in the pocket i put it in... O_O daz when i kinda started to get worried.... so i check the car again... while my mom opened the door... n then i go into the house... n i check all possible place where my keys coulda been... n i checked my bag like iono how many times... n finally i told my mom... n by this time i wuz feeling hecka stupid... cuz i mighta dropped it at the library... -____- but like... i didn't even go into that pocket of my bag the whole time there... n if it did drop i woulda heard it... or so i thot... >.< well newayz... i kept trying to think back where i coulda been... omg i wuz feeling hecka scared n stupid.... my keys!!!! *sigh*... then i checked my bag again... same pocket... just felt the top part this time also... n there were my keys... -___- i'm so smart... *sigh*... i'm so serious... somethings wrong w/ me today... i'm still all O_o and on top of that... i'm not exactly done w/ my hw... i still have to somehow write a bibliography using the books that i just got today n write a first draft for english and not make ne grammar mistakes cuz if i do... i can get no higher than a C on the essay and thats only if i get a perfect on my structure n message thingy... but since i know i suck at writing... if my grammar is skrewd up my grade would probably b no higher than a D-.... -___- life is lovely... *sigh*...
Thursday, April 15, 2004
flying sounds cool... too bad i can't fly for like the military cuz my vision is too evil... -___-
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
bio today was amazingly interesting... hahaha... amusing myself w/ my crazy random thots... heh... i ask the weirdest questions... I WANNA SEE A SNAKE BARF!!! hahaha... that'll be sooo cool... a snake swollowing a deer or something.... n barf it back up... that'll be the best... hahahahaha... so crazy... a snake eats something like a deer and then can just chill for like almost a month w/out needing to eat... sooo cool... hahaha...my next project for myself... draw a flip book of a snake eating a deer and then having it barf it back up... n then i'll turn it into a movie n put it on my blog... yeah... that'll be the best!!! anyone wanna volunteer to color for me? hahaha... i can't color... or more like... i like to draw... but i'm afraid to color... cuz to me... when i start coloring it stops looking the way i want it to... and then i just skrew up the picture... so i usually leave my pictures black n white... but it'll be cooler if this is colored... someone wanna color for me????? hahahahaha..... my crazy ideas coming into effect again... =P hahaha... must put plan to action... yeah.... =D
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soccer wuz super fun today... scrimage for an hour!!!! so fun... so... i'm being moved to left D... more action!!! hahaha... fun fun... so scary... TF screams so much.... i'm almost scared to charge her... cuz instead of doing something when pressured she screams!!! hahaha... throws me off guard... but i guess its all good if she does that to other schools... =P i wonder how'd they react... hahaha... i'll bet no one in the other schools r a special as tiff... hahahaha... i still yet have to actually do a headder thingy in a game... i've tried... but iono... i think my perception is all off... it goes bouncing away... those headder thingies r sooo coool =P ... o yea... and i'm so proud of myself cuz i seem to be using my left foot a lot more too.... yay!!! then i'm not too dependent on my right foot... so i don't always have to kick it out as a defense thingy... i can kick it to someone on my team up the line... yay!!! hahaha... iono probably woundn't really work for me in a real game... but i can always dream... hahaha
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must work harder in school!!!!!!!!!!!!! can't skrew myself over... must not skrew myself over... and... must get better grades to pull up my GPA... yes... so much to do!!! so lil time in a day... and not enough smartness in my brain... hmmm... must do something about that... hahahaha...
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soccer wuz super fun today... scrimage for an hour!!!! so fun... so... i'm being moved to left D... more action!!! hahaha... fun fun... so scary... TF screams so much.... i'm almost scared to charge her... cuz instead of doing something when pressured she screams!!! hahaha... throws me off guard... but i guess its all good if she does that to other schools... =P i wonder how'd they react... hahaha... i'll bet no one in the other schools r a special as tiff... hahahaha... i still yet have to actually do a headder thingy in a game... i've tried... but iono... i think my perception is all off... it goes bouncing away... those headder thingies r sooo coool =P ... o yea... and i'm so proud of myself cuz i seem to be using my left foot a lot more too.... yay!!! then i'm not too dependent on my right foot... so i don't always have to kick it out as a defense thingy... i can kick it to someone on my team up the line... yay!!! hahaha... iono probably woundn't really work for me in a real game... but i can always dream... hahaha
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must work harder in school!!!!!!!!!!!!! can't skrew myself over... must not skrew myself over... and... must get better grades to pull up my GPA... yes... so much to do!!! so lil time in a day... and not enough smartness in my brain... hmmm... must do something about that... hahahaha...
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
heh... no study hall this week... i guess they figure we can't b dying on our first week back... *sigh*... iono tho... sometimes... i think i'm probably better off doing something productive during study than going to elective and feeling useless... *sigh*......... ya know.... when i found out i wuzn't in a worship team... miss lan told me i wuz gonna b in training for stuff i need to work on to get better.... so... like... i didn't really have a problem.. cuz i figured i would b learning something.... but now... *sigh*.... iono... it makes me sad to be so useless... i'm not doing nething... might as well not be in worship n just do the ppt for them cuz they need someone to do ppt... i don't learn nething... i go in there n just watch everyone else practice n stuff... i'm starting to wonder... whether they were really gonna teach me nething or they just needed someone to type ppt and click the slides... cuz yea i learned the AV stuff... but thats about it... n i never had the chance to apply it... so i'm gonna forget... and... like... the really sad thing is... if i'm supposed to learn from watching other ppl practice for chapel... am i supposed to apply it somehow? *sigh*... it makes me sad cuz.... even tho a whole lot of ppl on the team rn't able to b there for chapel... deborah isn't given the chance to play piano... even tho they're not gonna have a piano person... and what i've noticed too is that there is gonna b fewer singers cuz ppl rn't gonna be there... but then... instead of using ppl that are already on the team ppl like... *ahem* ppt & AV ppl... they're gonna invite ppl from the other team to replace... *sigh*.......... i've given up wanting to do nethin besides my lil ppt stuff cuz i know i suck at everything else... but iono... it makes me sad that they don't give deborah a chance... deborah is super great at piano... i think deborah should b able to play piano... and as for me... i just wanna do something... learn something... so i won't suck in the future... -___-
Friday, April 09, 2004
so the juniors n screaming class unity... planning things... and... *sigh*....... its all weird... and i learn things... that r interesting... and i'm one of the ppl getting yelled at cuz... tho class unity would b nice... i'm a doubter n i see all the negatives... thats cuz i gave up long ago... man... its like almost impossible w/ cliques n certain ppl who seem to think that they must talk to only certain types of ppl n like act like they can see the ones that r beyond their notice... how do u start something like class unity when ppl seem to have already decided unconsciously what they wanted...
so newayz... i guess... somehow we're gonna try to make this class unity thing work for a yr... and then we'll graduate... then mebe we'll see how many ppl keep in touch...
someone: and since no one knows you
someone: we don't know where to place to
someone: we just placed you with the geeks and freaks....
...mmhmm...
so newayz... i guess... somehow we're gonna try to make this class unity thing work for a yr... and then we'll graduate... then mebe we'll see how many ppl keep in touch...
someone: and since no one knows you
someone: we don't know where to place to
someone: we just placed you with the geeks and freaks....
...mmhmm...
Monday, April 05, 2004
heh... easter vacation... *sigh*... it feels good... went to the library... checked out n finished reading my brit lit book... -___- newayz... yeah... i should do other hws too... but... iono... heh... i'm happy i got to go to the library... cuz that means i can check out other books to read too... heh... books r my friends... they r my entertainment... they r my world.. they r my life!! hahahaha... mebe not that drastic... tho... iono... sometimes... iono.... my sis says i live in my books too much... my head is always in this fantasy world... i don't like reality... when i'm in my book... i live it... i'm addicted to reading... *sigh*... iono... mebe i'm just weird... sometimes i just like to recoil into my fantasy world of books n then everything is ok... but seriously speaking... iono if thats a very good thing... sometimes... i can't differentiate btwn the fantasy world of my books n reality... iono... haha... but i love reading... i have my amusement for the week... nice n relaxed once all my hw is done...
Friday, April 02, 2004
"You're calling me to lay asside
the worries of my day
to quiet down my busy mind
and find a hiding place
worthy, You are worthy"
chapel today... i think the song Unashamed Love really hit me... cuz... like... recently i've been so... iono... stressed and depressed over a lot of things... and like... when it was because of accademic reasons... i kinda threw myself into my studying more and more... my life was reduced down to nothing but hw studying school and minimal sleep... the more this happened... it seemed to make me more depressed and stuff... sometimes everything would seem so hopeless... i'd like study... but be accused of not studying... and like... i'd go home and pressure myself to work harder... the sad thing was... thats all i seemed to do... i didn't seem to have any time for God anymore... sometimes i'm afraid i'm like spiritually dead or something cuz sometimes i'd feel so alone... mebe something's wrong w/ me or something... i was told that taking 30 seconds out of stressing and studying to stare at God's creation would help me get into perspective but it just didn't seem to work... the song today just reminded me that no matter how much i'm stressing and no matter how busy i am, i need to remember to set aside time for God because He deserves it a lot more than my homework and studying do... i have been like pushing God aside and telling Him to wait and never really comming back later to talk to Him...but the truth is... He is more worthy of my time than anything else and i need to remember that...
Thursday, April 01, 2004
~Skillet - Collide~
We have fallen, we have fallen again tonight
Where do we go from here, when they're tearing down our lives?
When all they want is, when all they want is for us to live in fear
How long can we hold on? Can we hold on? Hold on!
Chorus:
There's something deep inside
It keeps my faith alive
When all you can do is hide from the fear that's deep inside of you
Something to hold me close when I don't know
There's something deep inside that keeps my faith alive
We are healing, but it's killing us inside
Can we take a chance when faith and fear collide
We can make it, step out and take it
We can't live feeling so numb
How long can we hold on? Can we hold on? Hold on!
We have fallen, we have fallen again tonight
Where do we go from here, when they're tearing down our lives?
When all they want is, when all they want is for us to live in fear
How long can we hold on? Can we hold on? Hold on!
Chorus:
There's something deep inside
It keeps my faith alive
When all you can do is hide from the fear that's deep inside of you
Something to hold me close when I don't know
There's something deep inside that keeps my faith alive
We are healing, but it's killing us inside
Can we take a chance when faith and fear collide
We can make it, step out and take it
We can't live feeling so numb
How long can we hold on? Can we hold on? Hold on!